The meltdown has begun
My path to self destruction turns out not to be fun
So I attempt to turn around
But moving backwards is harder than going forwards
Turning around causes too much pain
Going this way only gains humiliation and shame
I yearn to take the hurt out of me
The thing that is crushing my chest, making it hard to breath
I am slowly slipping in and out of reality
I find myself want to stay lost in my fantasies
But that is an impossibility
With every stone thrown at me
I get a jolt of reality
The reality burns me on the inside
So much that i begin to cry
I start to hyperventilate and wish I could die
My world is falling apart, my body along with it
I know my soul is still alive
But without my body it cannot survive