All through my shaking body,
The spasms and convulsions unfold,
Each one bringing more pain,
But I do not feel it.
I don’t feel anything anymore.
Each day my lonely childhood passed,
Emotion was slowly fading away,
An empty vessel left alone in defeat,
You can’t hate, what you can’t feel.
Words echoing throughout my mind,
Your voice still reigns supreme,
All my thoughts are washed away,
Pushed back so I can hear your lies.
They pour into my ears like the rain falling,
A cadence pattern that never ends,
These insistent bitter words,
I’m sorry I’m not what you expected,
I believe it when you say your praise is not deserved.
Nothing but a marionette,
Dancing on these metal strings,
Bound to this state of mind,
Condemned to the abuse,
Nothing matters when innocence is lost,
I’ve been damned since I was born.