Alone again I remove my halo,
I drop the illusion of being an angel
I don’t want to live my life this way,
hiding my face from the world each day
I’m really a sinner disguised as a saint
I pretend I’m from heaven
and blessed with God’s grace.

I hide behind a false smile,
my true feelings hidden all the while
I can’t seem to break free of my chains
society molds me into something I’m not
I just pray I’m never caught.

When I’m alone my emotions are free
I’ve cried enough tears to fill all seven seas and yet there seems to be no end to my pain
I know when tomorrow arrives
I’ll place the mask over my face again.

I don’t want to be something I’m not,
but I just can’t seem to be able to stop
when I’m in my disguise I feel strong and alive but when I’m alone I feel like I’ve died
crying these tears of black pearls
I know I don’t deserve
these beautiful wings that I stole.

I’ve always thought
I’d never get in those pearly gates,
I just don’t belong my soul had fled
before all my wrongs
I thought I belonged to the dark angel below
that terrible place where all sinners go.

I believed I wasn’t worthy of His protection
I was just another demon of imperfection
my sins were too great, my guilt just too fierce I couldn’t face Him
and in my heart His gaze pierce

I met a young man who told me to kneel
ask for forgiveness and have it be real
He told me of Jesus and how He died for me
and now I am free, truly free, I can breathe knowing I’m saved, that I don’t have to hide
with God as my savior I know I’m alive.