Once I loved a boy
loved him more than words can say
I gave him all I had
but he didn't feel the same way.

Endeless days and nights,
I listened to him talk
I gave him all i had
but he didn't feel the same way.

I waited for him to see
the special thing that we had
I hoped that one day
he will see me as more than a friend.

I didn't want to give up
even when signs were clear
I still held on to the hope
but he didn't feel the same way.

All days we spent together
are still so bitter sweet
the bond I felt with him
was nothing but an illusion.

And then the tragedy struck
illness imprisoned me again
while he went on with his life
I lay there in pain.

I didn't want him to know
didn't want his pity
so we drifted apart
but he was always there in my mind
he was always there in my heart.

He tried to resume the friendship
not realizing that nothing is the same
not knowing that im sick
not knowing how much it hurts
that he doesn't feel the same way.

And then he met her
the girl who took his heart
the girl I always hoped I'll be
I had tears down my face when he told me
but I didn't let him see.

I wished him all the best
tried to give him good advice
while inside my heart was breaking
he loves her the way he can never love me.

Finally it's the end of the road
I can't talk to him again
I'm left to fight this illness
I'm left all alone.

While i lay here in the dark
he's somewhere with her
im ready to admit defeat
I can't hope anymore
I can't fight anymore

But I know I will be ok
it just wasn't meant to be
I know I'm strong
I know I will fight this illness
the way I once fought for him.