It used to be so easy……just breathe.
Never thought about it……
I just did it…..
But now……
Deep, slow, painful gasps……
Then the relief comes, it is brief……

When did I decide, I did not care to breathe?

Sharp, it stings……why me?
There is enough air for everyone……
Why can’t I……
It is free, you do not have to pay for it……

When did I choose to be careless with my life?

Now my lungs will not supply the oxygen I need to……
This machine has to do it ……
I need to……
Breathe……!
I need to breathe…..!

My lungs are black, like charcoal…..
A coal mine, deep in my soul, no miner could mine……
No miner could find, my soul,

No more radiation, they can’t operate anymore……
To invasive, it has eaten me to the core……
Cellular take over……
Abnormalities……

When did I choose to be different...
Why did I pick this way to say Goodbye?

When did I decide, To Die?
I don’t know why……

Dedicated to Randy Lee Pinney, My Second Husband
Who is Terminally Ill with Brain and Lung Cancer
Father of Brittianna Jacqueline Pinney,
I Love you Dear Child for now you still have me…
Merry Christmas and Happy New Yr. Dec. 2003.

Please Include Mr. Pinney is close to Death. This is a tribute to him, he was my Husband.