It’s a sunny day;
but the sky seems grey.
If I died
I wouldn’t care.
I already wish
I was never here.

I feel exiled,
all who know me
roar with laughter
as the insults they hurl,
hit me like boulders.

From birth,
I was forced upon this world.
Encircled by many strong bulls;
and roaring lions,
mouths open wide against me.

I am poured like water
my bones out of joint.
My heart has turned to wax;
and melted away.

Not a word from their mouths can be trusted.
Their hearts are filled with destruction.
I am far from perfect;
but they are beyond forgiveness.

All night long
I flood my bed with tears.
My eyes grow weak with misery,
I don’t know if I can stand it any longer.

I search my mind and heart,
for a way to end this pain and violence;
but my mind has gone numb
and my heart has been replaced,
by, a cold, dark, empty, space.

From the back of my mind,
I watch this all play out
hoping it will soon end.


perhaps,
he who digs a hole
will fall into the pit they created,
and all the pain and violence they’ve caused
will collapse upon their head.

Their mouths are full
of lies, curses, and threats.
God, has abandoned me,
he covers his eyes and ceases to see.

Everyday I am getting weaker.
I cannot wrestle my thoughts much longer.
The sorrow in my heart
slowly eats at me from the inside.
I ask myself,
what did I do to deserve this?

And so it ends,
maybe it’s finally over;
but I find myself,
lying,
and dying,
In the dry dusts of death.