*THOUGHT I WAS HAPPY,
FINALLY FOUND WHAT I WAS MISSING.
BUT I WAS BLINDED BY LOVE,
AND DISTRACTED BY HIS KISSING.
*I LOOK BACK NOW AND LAUGH,
I WAS SUCH A FOOL.
IT WASN'T A REAL RELATIONSHIP,
I SHED ENOUGH TEARS TO FILL A POOL.
*HE DIDN'T CARE ABOUT ME,
OR ANYTHING I HAD TO SAY.
WHAT A SLICK BASTARD,
THIS GAME, HE ALREADY KNEW HOW TO PLAY.
*BUT WHO'S THE LAME AT THIS END?
THE INNOCENT OR THE ONE WHOM FOOLED AROUND?
HE MIGHT BE FREE OUT AND ABOUT,
BUT I'M THE ONE SAYING 'BOW DOWN.'
*BECAUSE IM NO LONGER HIS DOOR MAT,
GIRLFRIEND OR HOMEGIRL.
AND I HAVE ME SOMEONE SPECIAL,
WHO MAKES ME FEEL I HAVE A PLACE IN THIS WORLD.
*WE'RE FULL OF LAUGHS AND SMILES,
INSTEAD OF TEARS AND FROWNS.
HE KEEPS LIFTING ME HIGHER AND HIGHER,
NOT LIKE THAT FOOL WHO WOULD CRUSH ME DOWN.
*WHAT I THOUGHT WAS HAPPINESS,
WAS REALLY PAIN AND EMPTYNESS.
I HURT ALL MY LOVED ONES,
AS I FOLLOWED BEHIND HIS FOOTSTEPS.
*PRAYING TO GOD TO FORGIVE ME,
AS I CONTINUE TO TRY TO KEEP THE EVIL AWAY.
I NEED STRENGTH TO KEEP IT TOGETHER,
AS I LOOK AT LIFE UPON GOD'S TRAY.
*ALL I EVER DID WAS TRY TO HELP,
TRY TO FIND A LOST SOUL.
BUT ALL HE DID WAS BITE THE HAND THAT FED HIM,
NOW HE DOESNT KNOW KNOW WHICH DIRECTION TO GO.
*I CAN ONLY DO SO MUCH,
BEFORE MY BODY EVENTUALLY GIVES UP.
CATERING TO HIS EVERY NEED,
MY HAPPINESS WAS OUT OF LUCK.
*ALWAYS PUT HIM BEFORE ME,
THOUGHT HE WAS MY "WORLD."
JUST THE THOUGHT OF HIS "LOVE",
MAKES ME WANT TO HURL!
*HOPE ONE DAY HE FEELS MY PAIN,
AND TEARS FILL HIS EYES AS MINE DID.
HOW CAN ONE PERSON DO SO MUCH DAMAGE,
AND MAKE ME NOT WANT TO LIVE?
*HE PROMISED HE'D NEVER HIT ME,
A BUNCH OF BULL THAT WAS.
I COULDN'T STAND TO LOOK HIM IN THE EYE,
OR ENJOY HIS HUGS.
*I HAD TO LET HIM GO,
NO LONGER COULD I TAKE THE PAIN.
CAN'T SAY IF I'M HAPPIER WITHOUT HIM,
AT THIS TIME,MY UNHAPPINESS REMAINS THE SAME.
*BUT I NO LONGER HAVE PAIN,
PAIN CAUSED BY HIM I MEAN.
BECAUSE IT'S THE NEW ONE WHO MAKES ME SMILE,
AND IT'S HIS SHOULDER THAT I LEAN.